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Haven't been updating much!  Sorry about that....will be updating this week...lots to tell, lots to tell!

Ok...so class is starting in 2 weeks...and I'm just beginning to realize the financial ramifications....OMG!!!

Ok, I'm officially terrified.

Well, the countdown is really beginning towards class.  I have to admit, I'm getting scared.  What if I don't perform?  What if I don't get a good job?  I owe someone I love a LOT of money for this...we're talking over $20,000! The student loan in addition?  Well, not as stressed out about that.

Good God...what if it turns out to be one of those "Good Idea at the Time" kind of things....what have I got myself into?

Episode 6 of my podcast is up!

singleei.podbean.com/

I had to put my cat Lotus down yesterday...she was so sick.  The vet said she would only have about a day left anyway.  I feel like Hell.  My apartment is nothing more than a storage space where I sleep.  Strangely I didn't recognize it for hole it really is.  Until now.

Yesterday night I put Lotus on my bed.  She was really week and just lay there.  I got into bed and she was by my knees.  She was looking at me and I wanted to gently pull her up closer to me but I didn't want to hurt her.  She looked at me and then struggled up and snuggled close to the pillow.  Poor thing.  I love her so much.

I'm probably going to have to put my cat down tomorrow.  I've had her for 16 years.  Breaks my heart.

I was told to today that receptionists don't do very much and that I should be happy to have the job I have.  I was also told that I should be grateful that I was chosen to do it.

SCREW YOU AND THE HORSES YOU RODE IN ON...serving my notice tomorrow.

Got this in the mail today from xmidnightx ....how awesome!!  Love it!( Awesomeness! )

So I got anxious today and called SAIT..and found out my interview to get into the course is July 15...kind of nervous!  I got the afternoon off (I would have gone even if they didn't give me the time off)!

R.I.P. (Rot in Pieces) Michael Jackson!

Went to the gym this morning for my "Physical Fitness Test."  It turned out not so bad....as in could have been much worse.  Since I knew I had gained a HIDEOUS amount of weight...it wasn't a shock...just a constant disappointment in myself.

Anyway, I feel good after the slight workout.  It was only about 45 minutes and I stayed an extra 15 just to make it an hour...but my body and brain is telling me that I should have stayed longer...it's actually as if my body is saying it...my brain is only saying it because it knows I should.

Going back tomorrow to get some guidance on how to shrink my core...it badly badly needs to be shrunk.  Like now.  Like right now.  Somehow I wish it was a benign tumor...much faster to get rid of.

Watching "The New Asylums" on PBS about the mentally ill in prisons...quite interesting....sad, scary....though provokingwww.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/shows/asylums/

Oh...if only I could see my dad again....

I am not your girl.

So did  anyone miss me?  I haven't posted in 3 weeks.

I've started a new job...and I hate it.  *sigh*  I've kept in touch with my former boss and it still looks bleak.  I really want to quit the job I have now...but I don't know...if I took out my last GIC I could last a month.

I've been baking muffins and doing my podcast...which I've really been enjoying...

I've been too tired to play videogames....so darn tired.

There was something specific I wanted to post today...but left it and now I can't remember :)

Several years ago I was waiting for the #3 bus on 4th St SW.  There was a baby bird.  The baby bird decided that it wanted to go across the street...I saw it go onto the road and I thought "No, don't do it man.  DON'T DO IT!"  But it did.  It got half way across the street.  I thought, "It's gonna make it..go baby bird. GO!"  It got most of the way over...almost to the other sidewalk...and then the light turned green and baby bird was smeared all over the road.  The lady waiting beside me looked at me and I looked at her with horror.   I've been traumatized ever since.

I admit it, I had a love affair. A love affair with Money. I would go to the movies with Money and buy popcorn. Money and I bought a car and we looked to the future for a house. I would go to the grocery store with Money and buy groceries. Money and I made plans. But now Money is gone. Money, Money, where for art thou Money? Shall I compare thee to a summer's day Money? Come back here you fickle bastard! *sigh*

Gah!  I hate fasting..don't mind not eating when I don't want to...but I sure mind when I'm not allowed...ahahaaaahaaa!!

Ok, if one more person barfs around me this week, I'm going to lose my lunch and my mind all at the same time.  Just saying.