Ginger Snap Cookie

Well, my exam is tomorrow.  I'm a little stressed out...but I'm pretty sure that I know what I'm doing...however, if I get an array...I'm in a little trouble.

It's been a while since I've done an exam.....but I just need to take a step back, take a deep breath and just do it tomorrow.

Wish me luck.

 Ok,

Here's my post in response to THIS

I need to get it out, so bear with me....can't stand the article about this loser.  Yes, you heard me...LOSER!  There, I've said it.

Anyway, here's my answer:

My dad died from stomach cancer after two long, LONG years...it ATE him from the inside.  But I never once thought that his treatment was a waste.  He fought to the VERY last.

Quite frankly, I don't believe the father is in the right. I feel he's a coward and I think the concept of denying his child treatment would be out and out murder.  Perhaps he should grow a backbone and live up to his responsibility to his child.  He's lucky the government has stepped in so that he doesn't have to live with the thought that he murdered his child.

Don't get me wrong, I understand anguish...very well in fact.  My dad lost 70 lbs in one month and he basically starved and died of thirst right in front of our eyes.  It was slow and horrific to watch. By God we stood by him when he needed us and didn't put him down like an animal.  Or worse yet, stood by and did nothing.  We didn't deny him his medical requirements because we couldn't handle it.

I'm really disgusted with that person.  That makes me so ANGRY at him.  Coward.  It's a sad day when someone else has to take care of your loved one because you can't deal with the issue at hand.  The parent is causing the anguish in this little scene and if he's bent out of shape over it, he's only got himself to blame.  And if he's causing his kid anguish, then that's his fault too.

Sorry for being so vehement.

Did I mention I feel this guy is a coward?  Or a loser?  Living La Vida Loser?  Thank God MY dad loved me.

Hmmm..does this sound wierd?

I don't really enjoy spending money any more.  It used to bring me such joy and now it doesn't thrill me as much.  I buy stuff and it doesn't really thrill me.

Hmm.

Well, I have some decisions to make.  I'm getting some money, around $6000.   The first thing I'm going to do with it is pay off my Mastercard.  That's my first priority, which will leave me around $1400.  My Mastercard payment is non-negotiable...and later I will need to put 2 classes on it, which will cost $1200.

I want to buy a new computer as this laptop, while good for surfing the net and a few simple games, is not good for editing photos, video, etc.

Also this year I would like to get an airconditioning unit for the apartment.  Yah, I know, extravagant, but just one large enough to cool my small living room.  If I have to sleep in the living room....I'd do it.

I would really like to advance my business too...found some software which would really help get a website going.  Need to get some stock too..gah!!  I want to do all of this without getting a loan to do it.

That and pay off my credit line as well as the Mastercard.  Seems an impossible task.

Blurgh...I'll never look at food the same way again!

I woke up at 8:30 this morning and somehow it's almost 12 hours later. How did that happen? I haven't done a damn thing today.

I'm watching Zombiemania right now. It's actually quite interesting. It has George A Romero, Max Brooks, a clinical psychologist and others.

This brings to the forefront that I should start finding parts for my costume next year....I wish that I had access to some FX shops...that would be soooo handy....the guys from Land of the Dead made some tooth accessories that make the lips receed from the teeth...it's a great effect.....I need some contact lenses...damn...sounds expensive.

One person has implied that this is the reason I'm single....but considering how many people go to Zombie Walks, watch zombie movies, etc...I don't think that's it.  ****sigh, with the amount of oddballs that do have husbands/wives/SO's, I'm wondering what it is.

I've watched some of the episodes from my DVD Collection of the X-Files.....

I'm on Season 4...and it contains two of the most interesting episodes...

The first one that I like from this season is "Home."    Or in my words, "The Closer the Kin, The Better the Skin."  It's about a clan of genetic mutants....creeps me right out.

*shiver*

The second one is "The Field Where I Died."  I found this one amazing.  It's about Mulder meeting a woman he may have known in a previous life...it's so awesome...I recommend it.

This weekend was pretty good.

I stayed up very late on Friday night.  I should have gone to bed, but it was one of those things....ordered pizza pretty late....it was pretty good...I really enjoyed the wings.

Saturday I lazed around fairly late.  Saturdays are, as a rule, fairly slow for me....I like to take my time...usually don't get my butt in gear until around 5 pm.  Love it!!!  I went around 17th Avenue at my leisure.  It was a beautiful day out.  I had thought that it would be cold, but it was actually quite warm.

Today was another wonderful day.  I went to coffee as I usually do.  I really enjoy the weekly ritual.  I love seeing Tracy and Les.  I was quite tired today as I had gotten up early to do an errand...which I didn't end up doing anyway.  I watched Friday the 13th:  The Series and then fell asleep.  Ended up waking up a little late, but made brunch.

Tracy and Les dropped me off at Franklin Mall as I was going bowling.  I was early so I went to the Dollar Store at the Mall.  Awesome!  Love that Dollar Store...will have to go there more often.  I also went to T and T Market and bought some candied ginger and some coffee candies. I also went and took a look around Army and Navy as I was still pretty early for bowling.

I was still tired, but once I finally was able to go to the bowling alley, I started feeling better.  I had a great time!  I ended up taking photos....lots of photos...ended up being around 85 - 90.  Most of them turned out.  Some of them need to have red eye taken out, but I'll photoshop them if they are chosen to go on the company's site.  I also took some video...not good video...I hadn't thought of bringing my actual little video camera.  I had to use my camera's video capabilities...there's no sound.  Fortunately I may be able to add a sound track once I'm able to get my film editing software up and running. 

I'm pretty hyper right now...I drank a lot of coffee before bowling, 2 Coca Colas and 2 coffee candies.  However, I should go to bed.

It was an awesome day!

1. If you became ruler of the world, what three things would you do first?

             a)  I'd have a serious review of Canadian tax laws
             b)  I'd redirect certain wasted funds towards things like cancer research, alzeimer's research, etc.
             c)  I'd be rewriting some laws

1. If you were a superhero, what would be your name and what powers would you have?

             a)  Name?  I have no idea
             b)  Powers:  Super Speed, Invisibility, Telekinisis, and shapeshifting abilities

1. You can ask one question to someone who knows EVERYTHING. What is it?

             Why can't everyone just get along?

1. If you were invisible for a day, what would you do?

             If I were invisible for a day, I'd sit in on some meetings, go to secret places

1. If you saw a mythical/religious deity walking down the street, what would you do?

             I'd check to see if someone put something in my food or drink.

Here's a card I made for a friend of mine who I found out is pregnant:


I fixed the left corner...

I have a cold  :(

On Friday I went home to see my mom....Easter weekend.  That night I had a dream:

I dreamt my dad was laying down...he had passed away...he was gone but he opened his eyes and said to me, "I love you."  Then he closed his eyes again and I woke up....

Ok, so I've made a card for a coworker who is leaving to go back to Halifax....

A little bit of background...she loves shoes...she has a lot of them at her desk so I thought I'd integrate that theme...tell me if it works...





Get it?  Shoe-T  ***Shoot*** and then inside..."You're Leaving"   ie:  Shoot (Your Leaving)

1. What do you see when you are looking out of the window closest to you?

             The buildings across the street..

2.        Who was the last person coming into your room?           
             My landlord...he fixed the sound of water coming through pipes.

3.        What is the most predominant colour around you?           
             Brown

4.        What is right behind you?
            The couch.

5.        What is on today's calendar sheet?
             Doing errands.

Ok, so here's some general updates on what I've been doing.

The car has been out of commission for two weeks, but a friend of mine just fixed it.  He's going to bring it to my place on Saturday and then I'm going to drive him home as I have to go to Costco, Canadian Tire and find a Future Shop.

I've been staying after work 4 nights per week for approximately 3 hours a night to do my Autocad course.  I got really stuck for 3 days and then finally found someone to ask to help me.  Module 3 was hellish, but I've finally gotten through it and am in Module 4.  It's funny, sometimes it takes me a massive amount of time to understand something and then *boom* everything I look at I understand.  That was this evening, understood everything I looked at and got through half the module.  I wish that was the case for everything.  Hopefully from now on, the course will go smoothly.

Friday night went out and got ripped to shreds by two co-workers.  Which would explain the rather vehement (albeit a little drunken) post.  I still feel that way though.  I deserve to succeed.  And who knows, once I get through this...I may go further than anyone expects.

Lotus was supposed to go to surgery for her eyelid problem, but I didn't go to the vet before the estimate ran out.  I got a new estimate and they jacked up the price....double what it was!!!!!  How ridiculous.  I'm now looking for a new vet as I so can't afford the price they want....and I don't necessarily want to pay double.....that's just a mad money grab!  On the bright side...whatever was on her lid seems to have shrunk.  I'm still going to look for a new vet and get rid of it for her.

That's all I can think of for now...I'd better go to bed...I slept in this morning!! Not good...

Well, lately I've been scrapbooking my Puerto Vallarta photos.  This was from the vacation I took in 1999 with my Mom and Dad.  I thought I was almost done, but I found more pictures.  *sigh*  I always take a massive amount of pictures when I'm away and I also always take a camera with me everywhere I go.  Hey, you never know when you will need them.  I think I accidentally threw out one very important picture.  Peeve me off!!!

At any rate, now I have a whole lot more pictures to scrapbook.  That's alright, I love looking at them. 

I'm not a great scrapbooker.  I tend to go very simple.  It's not that I don't like the more fancy pages, because I do.  Some of the reason that I am going simple is that I am inexperienced with scrapbooking.  But I'm finding that even though I am inexperienced, I kind of like the simplicity.  Which is weird because for most things I like to go fancy.  I like it that the pictures are the main focus of what I'm doing.  I like the memories they invoke in me and I like writing down those memories with the photos.

I'm finding that scrapbooking is very relaxing for me.  It does tend to be a little expensive, but I try to buy bulk where ever possible.  Costco has a lot of inexpensive bulk scrapbooking supplies.  I also have a lot of stickers and such that I've bought previously...so I'm trying to use them up. 

There's also a lot of video podcasts that I download for free to get ideas for a variety of papercrafts.  Free is definitely cheaper than buying magazines!

Anyway, I got the photos of the condo we stayed at into my scrapbook this evening....those are some of the ones I found this evening...so that's cool.

Women Still Make Less Than Men In Canada.....and They Expect It To Get Worse

I'm sorry that I have to say this folks, but this is the way it is.  I have spent the evening with 2 people who are so fucking jealous that I am trying to make something out of myself other than staying in the bottom tier, that they felt they had to try to tear me down to bits.

Listen up....

FYI, YOU ARE CLEARLY NOT MY FRIENDS, NO MATTER HOW YOU TRY TO CONVINCE ME YOU ARE.  I'M YOUNG BUT I WASN'T BORN YESTERDAY.

I understand your jealousy.  I understand that you can't get your fat asses in gear and change your pathetic little situations.  But let me make this CRYSTAL clear to you.  I WILL NOT STAY AT WHATEVER LEVEL YOU THINK I SHOULD BE AT.  You should have been careful about the ass you tried to kick, because it VERY WELL MAY BE the ASS YOUR KISSING IN THE FUTURE.

I WILL NOT listen to your attempt to bring me down.  I WILL SUCCEED BITCHES!

I WILL NOT BE MADE TO FEEL I AM LESS THAN DESERVING.

I'm sorry to say this, but FUCK YOU AND THE HORSES YOU RODE IN ON.

Have a nice day. Oh, did I mention... fuck you.  You know who you are.

Gary Gigax, Father of D and D Dead

Well, here I am.  Feeling really tired and a bit down.  Not soul crushingly down, but you know.

I think that sleeping in this weekend will help.

Had a victory today.  I've been stuck on a concept for 3 days now.  I finally asked someone and low and behold VICTORY WAS MINE!!!  I figured it out.  Turns out I misunderstood one of the instructions.  I guess I should have asked someone earlier, but I like to exhaust every other option first.

Anyway, I'll be ok.