Ginger Snap Cookie

So I got anxious today and called SAIT..and found out my interview to get into the course is July 15...kind of nervous!  I got the afternoon off (I would have gone even if they didn't give me the time off)!

R.I.P. (Rot in Pieces) Michael Jackson!

Went to the gym this morning for my "Physical Fitness Test."  It turned out not so bad....as in could have been much worse.  Since I knew I had gained a HIDEOUS amount of weight...it wasn't a shock...just a constant disappointment in myself.

Anyway, I feel good after the slight workout.  It was only about 45 minutes and I stayed an extra 15 just to make it an hour...but my body and brain is telling me that I should have stayed longer...it's actually as if my body is saying it...my brain is only saying it because it knows I should.

Going back tomorrow to get some guidance on how to shrink my core...it badly badly needs to be shrunk.  Like now.  Like right now.  Somehow I wish it was a benign tumor...much faster to get rid of.

Watching "The New Asylums" on PBS about the mentally ill in prisons...quite interesting....sad, scary....though provokingwww.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/shows/asylums/

Oh...if only I could see my dad again....

I am not your girl.

So did  anyone miss me?  I haven't posted in 3 weeks.

I've started a new job...and I hate it.  *sigh*  I've kept in touch with my former boss and it still looks bleak.  I really want to quit the job I have now...but I don't know...if I took out my last GIC I could last a month.

I've been baking muffins and doing my podcast...which I've really been enjoying...

I've been too tired to play videogames....so darn tired.

There was something specific I wanted to post today...but left it and now I can't remember :)

Several years ago I was waiting for the #3 bus on 4th St SW.  There was a baby bird.  The baby bird decided that it wanted to go across the street...I saw it go onto the road and I thought "No, don't do it man.  DON'T DO IT!"  But it did.  It got half way across the street.  I thought, "It's gonna make it..go baby bird. GO!"  It got most of the way over...almost to the other sidewalk...and then the light turned green and baby bird was smeared all over the road.  The lady waiting beside me looked at me and I looked at her with horror.   I've been traumatized ever since.

I admit it, I had a love affair. A love affair with Money. I would go to the movies with Money and buy popcorn. Money and I bought a car and we looked to the future for a house. I would go to the grocery store with Money and buy groceries. Money and I made plans. But now Money is gone. Money, Money, where for art thou Money? Shall I compare thee to a summer's day Money? Come back here you fickle bastard! *sigh*

Gah!  I hate fasting..don't mind not eating when I don't want to...but I sure mind when I'm not allowed...ahahaaaahaaa!!

Ok, if one more person barfs around me this week, I'm going to lose my lunch and my mind all at the same time.  Just saying.

Well, I've signed up for another class...this one rather short...3 Saturdays.  But it's a pre-requisite for MicroStation.  I think I'd actually be able to challenge the exam, but then thought better just take the course.  I'd better learn something.  *sigh*

I got a job!!!!!  *HAPPY DANCE*

Had an accident yesterday *sigh*  I fell and have hurt my foot....had to go for Xrays this morning.  Very very inconvenient.  Very inconvenient indeed.

For some reason I'm really missing my dad today.

A friend of mine's husband works at SAIT..and I've made an appointment with him to check out the department (so I can see if I want to take classes).  Am I paranoid for insisting that he tell his wife, my best friend.

Just don't want anything to be misinterpreted.

I'm hoping zombies as I am somewhat prepared for that.  In lieu of that, I think that the superflu or global warming will contribute to us being in a state of extinction.

The second installment of my podcast!  Enjoy!

http://singleei.podbean.com/

Well, the first week of my Employment Impaired life has past.  I was actually really depressed about the whole thing.  I'm not talking pathologically...just the mild to be expected version.

I made it through and actually got a lot of stuff regarding the pre employment search done.  Not actually applying for jobs, but pre-search stuff.  Like what?  Well, applying for EI, getting medical coverage sorted, going to EI, making sure the money that was missed on my "final paycheque" was fixed, etc. 

And I started a podcast for for the duration of my Employment Imparedness...I have to record a new episode tomorrow.

Nothing too exciting.  Basically I haven't got my butt in gear until today.  And that is because I went out for coffee with friends and felt much better about things.

I did apply for jobs this evening and will apply steadily (hopefully) this week.  And next week and the next.

I have a couple months of car payments and should have enough groceries.  Mind you, I have 28 days to wait for me EI.  You heard me correctly, 28 days.

My god, what am I going to do for June's rent?  Happy Birthday, you're evicted...

Who knows, it will probably work out.

Dreaming of tornados again.

I dreamt that I was in a house and lying on a couch.  There was a man there in uniform sitting across from me....he seemed to be my "husband."  I playfully rejected his advances.

There was another man sitting in a chair...old.

The roof started to shake and I went into the basement.  There were those "storm doors" that I opened up and there was a tornado forming outside.  My "husband" was there but the old man had fled.  I was calling him and the storm was getting worse.  My husband found him and brought him into the basement.  I closed the doors and we sat and waited out the storm.

My husband opened up the storm doors to take a look but it wasn't over.  I remember him thinking "I just realized the danger I put my wife in."  Yes, thinking.  Anyway, the storm was over and we went out.  A scene of devastation.

Scene change.  The husband was in a bus (van?) (still in uniform) with the old man and a little boy.  They were looking for a shovel so they could help with shovelling the rubble.  They were in a city and they were searching all over.  They were searching for a bank where the hubby had a storage locker.  The little boy pointed to a parking lot and the hubby said "Yes, that's it."  They were in the empty parking lot and there were storage lockers all around the lot.  He took out a large antique key and opened it...there were photos and such but no shovel.  The little boy (looking through his eyes) went to an open storage space and found a green "machine gun" that didn't look like one.

That's where I woke up...I think that the shovel was in the storage bin....